Hazel’s World

I have been listening to Dr. Charles Stanley’s podcast (thanks to my boyfriend’s advise) and I would like to share something about his view on Money Management based on a biblical scale

Money is a topic that interests most people. I too for one, have had crazy antics (and often unsuccessful ventures) in trying to make my money grow. *sigh.. as my friend said, if only money would grow on trees.

Believers and unbelievers alike will benefit from this principle so I encourage you to look at it with an open minded view point. There are a lot of pointers you can learn from no matter what your faith is. However, if you are an unbeliever, I’d appreciate if you could respect mine J

Principle 1. Luke 16: 10-15

“He who is faithful in least, is faithful also in much, and he who is unjust in least, is unjust also in much”

POOR MONEY MANAGERS OF A LITTLE, WILL BE POOR MONEY MANAGERS OF A LOT.

If you are poor in managing a dollar a day, you will be poor in managing millions of dollars a day. We always wonder if only God would give us more, then our financial problems would be less. That is not so based on this principle. God says “Don’t worry about the large bank account, look at what you got in your pocket, if you become a good money manager of what you have, then we can talk about increasing it”

Principle 2. Luke 16:11

“Therefore if you have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon, who will commit to your trust the true riches?”

FAILURE TO BE FAITHFUL WITH GOD’S MONEY WILL DEPRIVE YOU OF THE GREATER RICHES

If we are poor money managers, we have no right to anticipate and expect God to give us true riches – that of which is immaterial. When we fail to manage that which is tangilble, how do we expect ourselves to seek and find the true riches which is above and beyond the material? Why should God give us the capacity to understand that which is beyond the material when we can’t seem to deal of that which is the material? We think science is the answer to all questions but what about those that are beyond scientific? Logic, reasoning, vs. the sense of humanity, balance, reality, tranquillity.

How can we have higher knowledge of something priceless if we could not take care of our most basic needs which a ‘higher’ being has provided us?

Principle 3. Luke 16: 12

“And if you have not been faithful in what is another man’s, who will give you what is your own?”

FAILURE TO HANDLE FAITHFULLY THAT WHICH BELONGS TO ANOTERH, WILL DEPRIVE YOU OF OWNING YOUR OWN

If you do not carefully use anything that which was borrowed, loaned, or rented, don’t expect God to give you your own. If you tear apart that rented apartment, wrecked your brother’s car while driving drunk, or tried to squeeze your way out of paying a loan, don’t expect God to answer your prayers even if you worked really hard for it. God wants you to learn to respect other people’s property before He would think of giving you your won. He would sense that you are not ready to take care of the things He is about to give you.

Principle 4: Luke 16: 13

‘No servant can serve two masters. For eirhter he will hate the one and love the other’

YOU CAN NOT BE COMMITED TO CHRIST AND BE DRIVEN BY LOVE FOR MONEY

Sometimes the most greedy people end up without having any, on the other hand, sometimes the person who is not that greedy but very generous has a right perspective of financial wealth. The truth is, if you are a child of God, you are rich in ways the world would not understand, and rich in ways that what you have will never be taken away from you.

Ask yourself, what part does money play in your life? Are you working hard so you could keep up with the latest trends, gadgets and whatever your friends have? Or do you make your money work for you to tend to your most basic needs first? Do you use money as a sign of power? or do you use it to help other people? Money (tied with emotions) can either make you a Warren Buffet or a Hugh Hefner. Will your money inspire others to lead a rich life filled with inner peace? Or will your money influence people on the path of destruction? Remember, you can’t have too much of a ‘good’ thing. It becomes nasty, like candy.

Principle 5 Luke 16 : 14 – 15

“ The Pharisees, who are lovers of money, having heard of these things are scoffing at him and He said to them, ‘You are those who justify yourselves before men but God knows your hearts, for what is highly esteemed among men is an abomination in the sight of God”

THOSE WHO PUT UNDUE EMPHASIS ON MONEY WILL SCOFF AT THE PRINCIPLES OF SCRIPTURE AND JUSTIFY THEIR ACTIONS

Jesus forbids this whole idea of ‘loving; money, If you make excuses about your behaviour towards your cravings, your possessions, if you are obsessive of owning a ‘signature item’ beyond your means, then you are OWNED by money. It is written that the love of money is the root of all evil. Money in itself is not evil, but GREED is. Greed is what pushes a person to kill his brother for a land and princely titles, a woman to sell her body, and a person to go bankcrupt in loans he couldn’t afford to pay just so he could live the ‘lifestyle’ he wanted.

We should all acknowledge that everything in this world is on ‘loan’. Remember this while you are breathing your last breath. We can not take everything we own to the grave, (though it can give us a pretty lavish funeral). We are mere delegators of what was bestowed upon us. What matters is what we would leave behind and how, in our simple ways can we make our own little space in this world a better place for the next generations to come. Do we impart something that they can squander? Or do we leave a message of sharing and continuous learning? The world is young and is at the palm of our hands, what are we to do with it?

For further insights on other life principles, check out Dr. Charles Stanley’s website at www.intouch.org

Yesss walang kokontra, gusto kong magblog baket? may reklamo ka? eh di wag mo basahin..

I watched this movie with Lara, Pat, Arls and Rene (oo, sorry kayo special mention) matagal nakong di nakakanood ng Tagalog movie, huling panood ko ata eh pelikula pa ng nanay ni KC.

what prompted me to watch was santorini greece. As a traveller, i dreamt of going to this place. Actually its mykonos, but santorini is santorini so, ok.. its still Greece!

oo! di na rin ako magpapaliguy liguy.. isa ako sa mga baliw na nauto ng ‘kapamilya’ sa mga random publicity about richard guesting in abs-cbn shows.

and then there is KC.

wala akong masabi.. Gabbyng Gabby. ika nga ni Tita Shawi, may magandang naidulot ang kagagahan nya. (Nga naman, magpapaka gaga ka lang din, sa guapo na). Her sweetness matched with an angelic voice is indescribable. I liked looking at beautiful girls! don’t ask.. e bakit ba? e sa i know how to appreciate beauty eh - cuz I am ONE. (Yung mga kokontra, better stop reading beyond this point).

Basically, its her dimples and smile that makes anyone melt. Its obvious how Richard kisses her in the movie. Even my boyfriend liked her (and he rarely liked other women but me - yeahh sureee. love you, babe xoxooxooxx).

Its the usual love story, kaso di ako makapag emote. sobrang funny kasi yung hirit ng nasa likod namin, and occasionally, kami din..

I had fun. I won’t critique the movie that much. I mean, what do you expect?

Pero sa lahat lahat ng anggulo ng movie, ito lang masasabi ko..

…Puta! ang guapo ni Richard.

Thats all..

I, thank you

I was soo looking forward to this film. I just found out last June that the 3rd installment was going to be shown in theaters this August. I had mixed feelings finding out that Rachel Weisz is not coming back for the third ep. I thought, they oughta give the other girl (Maria Bello) a chance.

Unfortunately, I was right.

Let’s start with the plot.

They gave it a twist, I loved the idea about a Chinese dark emperor, bringing to life terracotta soldiers, the love angle between that of the general and the witch who is the dark emperor’s - supposedly concubine, I liked the general (he cutie), and Michelle Yeoh, I liked Jet Li’s character,  I liked some one on one combat in kung fu, I loved that they changed the setting from Egypt to post war Shanghai,  the concept of the ‘Imhotep bar’ was good, the trailer even better.

Begs the question - why did the movie failed the other two previous sequels?

1st - the director was changed - from Stephen Sommers (The Mummy, The Mummy Returns) to Rob Cohen. Hats off to both, though I must admit, if you are the director of all the sequels, you will be more familiar with the sequences. As well as very keen on details -costumes, speech accents, scripts - after all, there is only one director.

Rob Cohen put together a lot of twists on the third mummy franchise which is refreshing, however, I am not sure if he has a final say on casting.. which I will be pointing out later on.

2nd - it is sooo CG Animated. I admit, I kinda find the second Mummy sequel all too cartoony - from the jackal soldiers up to the time The Scorpion King was let loose. But, this is much worse. I liked the idea of the terracotta soldiers charging towards the Great Wall, it kinda reminded me of my boss Mike’s chess set he bought in our trip to Beijing. But I wasn’t surprised by what I saw in the battle - the sand taking the scorned soldiers, and goodness, the face of Michelle Yeoh and the General on the sand is soo.. so… Filipino? Like.. when we watch a Tagalog movie that one of the main characters have died and you see their faces on the cloud smiling down. I find it a bit corny. Sorry, but I do, like the time Kate Beckinsale smiled a tear to Hugh Jackman at that Van Helsing movie in the end.

3rd - THE CASTING. This is a no brainer.
Maria Bello who took over Evie’s character is really pretty - and athletic. But she is no Rachel Weisz. It is like an omen to create a movie with replaced characters. And main characters at that. Thats hardly ever happened, and I believe that rarely works - to make the movie a little bit believable and to put the audience at the edge of their seats (though they know they are watching pure Hollywood fiction.) I think that Maria Bello could have made a better Evie, if she was the original Evie in the first place. But we have grown to love Rachel’s face and quirkiness in the previous sequels, plus I love her authentic Brit accent.

And Alex, Oh Alex.. what happened to your British accent? I find you soooo cute when you were a young lad. Luke Ford, who played the grown up Alex is sexy and charming, yes… But I think the casting should have looked for someone a little less taller than Brendan Fraser, who looked similar to the parents and not overpowering. aka, both parents are brunette. It’s understandable that a child of brunettes is a blonde at a young age, but Caucasian hair color changes in time - unlike us Asians.  I’ll give credit to Luke Ford, for trying his best to act a little bit like his dad’s character in the movie. They also should have made grown up Alex a little less of a rogue. I repeat, a little less - since being rougish he gets from his dad. What I meant was they should not have made his character estranged from his parents. This failed the family bonding they had on the second sequel. BUT, its nice to see Rick and Alex argued over which gun was better.

I was also looking forward to the return of that hot hott Arab guy Oded Fehr (majji). But I guess his presence is not needed here.

But overall, there was just no chemistry between the characters, and the actors. I can see it onscreen, I was waiting on my seat, looking for something more. But after the end credits came up, I felt.. WHAT THE??….

I wish Stephen Sommers would take over and make a Mummy 4. I dont know how, maybe.. he could create it in such a way that the Mummy 3 was just a bad dream?

Since I dont have a journal to write on, I feel compelled to type my experiences both here and myspace blogs. blogging and personal webpage nowadays take the place of those bulky scrapbooks. but if you ask me, id take up scrapbooking over blogging as it is more personalized. im such a nostalgic schmut! - if only it doesnt cost that much to make a scrapbook.

funny that two weeks ago, we were all cramming for last minute buys to bring to singapore. i was so excited for the trip - only to be surprised by my failing camera. in short, i wasnt able to take good pictures and just relied on my friends’ cams YESSS! CAN YOU IMAGINE?? ME OF ALL PEOPLE! WHY?? WHY?? HUWAIIIII????

i typed part of this blog on a big boat starship aquarius bound for malaysia and thailand. our incentive this year was a trip to singapore, and cruise our way to the other two countries.

in singapore we stayed at the very prestigious meritus mandarin hotel in orchard road - right across shopping malls (lucky plaza, takeshemaya and cathay mall!!) yaiks!. I was able to get a taste of their singaporean dimsum - CHANG KEE!! and also had the experience of eating mint chocolate ice cream sandwich the singaporean way - though i wasnt able to finish it-ask ritchie.

we went to the singapore ferry after a day. we were aboard starship aquarius and had a gala night or the captain’s ball that evening, me wearing a lush green dress with my hair and face made up. too bad for that blasted camera.

next morning we went to penang malaysia. usual temple tours with snakes… i remember we werent able to buy my ever so cheap mementos - ref magnets of countries i go to.

malaysia is predominantly a muslim country. what fascinated me was its city - penang. we rode on a bus to go tour a malaysian temple and british colonial houses. the city was peaceful and serene, their people not as smiley as the filipinos though, but its a country id like to visit again just to relax. funny, the beaches there are beautiful as well, however the local women go to beach in black burqa because of their islam customs- just like in jeddah.

Our tour guide in malaysia was very funny, he is chinese gay, loves to connect the historic sites with a song, and likes teasing mike and cecille. this is also where i first ate a malaysian version of corneto - in dark chocolate with orange. Yum indeed..

again, no camera. i would just rely on my friends’ pics.

phuket was a good place. its like palawan, patong beach is like subic bay. we went to fisherman’s place where there is authentic thai food, i really really looooove their soup in lemongrass and chili - yummmmmm. but overall, i think their main course is a little bland. tasted like filipino - but bland. the thais also have a custom to finish the water - not necesarilly the food. if you dont drink the glass down to the last drop, they’d be offended. so drink up!

we then rode a little boat going to james bond island. we passed by what looked like a 45 minute boatride through a lot of mangroves. james bond island looked like palawan, with bigger mountains. I remembered it rained really hard that day. we looked more like refugees being rescued from a disaster area than tourists. because of that heavy rain, we were mostly wet on our way back to the bus. most of my comrades got sick. good thing i ate always ate vegetables and fruits in all the cruise’s 3 day course meals. overall it was a beautiful day.

i bought a tubular worth of lemon honey tamarinds . boy the thais do really love their tamarinds as much as we love our mango.

i now realize why thailand is such a foreign magnet - not just because of the so called cheap asian sex for the dirty old men, but also because they are part of a ship tour. since philippines is isolated from the three countries (plus indonesia), philippines has to hard sell and do some heavy pr work when it comes to tourism. Not that tourism is bad in our country, we need more heave-ho i think. maybe the dept. of tourism must work together with superferry or a norwegian cruiseliner to have a cruise in bali / cebu / boracay / palawan. But because of the muslim extremists, we must also be compelled to tighten our security.

speaking of cruises..the cruise - is what i call living the life. we watched a theatrical show, then ate buffet at all the good restaurants aboard the ship, got our pictures taken, joined in the games and after that rainy spectacle in thailand, had ourselves a gooooood bubbly jacuzzi - across the oceana deck with the guests eating dinner. how weird was that? but still.. i wouldnt even have experienced all these if im not presently working where iam right now. ahhh tis the lifee… i wouldnt go back there in my own money, unless i have some millions to spare..

the last 3 days in singapore were a little touring and shop till you drop. i drop-no shop hahhaha.. (darn this blasted tooth.) we went to the singapore flyer and sentosa park to watch a spectaluar laser light show. its nothing youve ever seen believe me. . someday, i hope to go back to singapore in time for their may - july sale. i love their country as it is a melting pot of india, arab and chinese culture with british influence. clean, hardly any crime, people are friendlier than in hongkong AND there are a lot of filipinos working there too, in the hotels and cruises doing us special favors
while my colleagues were buying branded stuff like burberry, charles and keith, coach bags, i was stuck with the usual going home presents - giordano shirts, chocolates and ref magnets. even with my bag’s zipper which just gave out, i had to control the urge to spend because i needed the dollars for something i am planning for.

its good to tour places without me having to pay for everything. this is part of the reason why im staying at my current job. aside from the wacky bonding i have with my team, there is the trip and a (little) monetary incentive that they ‘reward’ their ever so faithful hardworking jack of all trades sales team. i should have done this blogging a long time ago - four years back when we all first went to hongkong.

looking forward to another trip next year - JAPAN perhaps?

This is one of those days that I have a lot on my mind but nothing’s coming out …

Does anyone really read this stuff? (I know I do..)

More to come..

As the years go by, we dread to admit that we’re aging.. why? Even if we’re aging, we can still have the resolve to look young… However, we always make excuses, that old age makes us harder to stay in shape, our waists whittle down, our arms start to sag and those fine lines in our face and eyes became excusable, not to mention the drying of our neck! (and we’re still at 30)!

Come to think of it, why think of age when we can think of the possibilities? yeah, we grow old thats a fact, but with age comes wisdom (coming from me? thats a biggie).

So what does this have to do with title of my blog???

We have to be aware that as we age, our bodies get into sedentary mode if we allow it to be. its sooo easy to just sit on a couch, eat popcorn, buy snickers in dark chocolate, munch on my favorite chips, hang out at wendy’s / jollibee / Mcdonald’s, feast on sisig with beer and calamares, treat your family to a pizza with pops on the side, you and your friends clamoring on a hot fudge sundae on a sunny day, not to mention our very own halo-halo during the summer! (dont these foods just make you drool??)

so with all the good food out there, why choose to go light? salads, natural fruits, removing that crunchy, juicy, crispy chicken skin, skipping on salt and sugar, saying no to seconds and that activity we dread - EXERCISE..

Here are the main reasons:

1) Too much junk (which I am guilty of) will make you drowsy. It happens to me, specially if, like me, you looove munching on the sweets. I can’t get enough of chocolate, the darker the better, with nuts, the sweeter. Too many calories will leave me lethargic, all that processed sugar will come crashing down on me after two hours. Besides, you have to be aware that what you’re munching on are ‘empty’ calories.

2) All those empty calories, aside from making us drowsy and drugged, turns into fat when we’re sedentary.. and yes, we all hope it goes to our butts and boobs but thats not usually the case.. the fat creeps on our arms, thighs, and nightmare of all nightmares - OUR BELLIES AND CELLULITE CELLULITE CELLULITE! the mother of all villains!

3) Having to realize you’re one size larger. I went from small to medium thinking it was normal. yeah, its normal. Aging people get fat in time, its probably just ‘mature’ fat as opposed to ‘baby’ fat when we were young. We have to remember though, not because its the norm doesnt mean its always right. If we find one side of the fence as normal, why can’t we make our own ‘normal’? If at 18 you are a size 6, or small, why can’t we retain it? because its soooooo good to eat?.. yeah thats right… why can’t we eat in moderation? if something is making you sad and you turn to food for comfort, why not try reading a book or window shopping or watching your favorite ep on tv without the munch? & yes try exercising.. just TRY. I just started TRYING.. and now, Im hooked! AND if you think you were born fat, now is the best time to shrink and see yourself as a new person. Who knows? you might love it.

4) Imagine your disease 10 years from now. You are what you eat. If you eat too much sweets, just think about having a high sugar level which would result in diabetes after another 5. If you like salty, oily foods & guzzling down beer with your peers, imagine yourself having a litho / laparascopy procedure when youre in youre early 40s (procedure to have your gall and kidney stones removed). If you dread the taste of wheat and oat, imagine yourself dying of colon cancer when you’re 60. And if you can’t quit smoking.. well you get the picture…

5) I won’t be coy. I want to be the apple of the eye of my man. For some men, they consider their girlfriends sexy when they’re chubby, some men like em skinny. To each his own-just as we women have our own ‘little’ standards. Who would want her guy checking out other goods when he’s happy with the ‘goods’ he’s got?

Why did I start doing it? Aside from all those mentioned above, I’m lucky to have my own personal cheerleader who supports and encourages me. Without him, I wouldn’t have the fuel to continue doing what I do.

I used to want to have an ideal Body Mass Index of 113 for my height of 5′1. I was at 108 last October. Right now, I am on borderline underweight and I couldnt care less. Body Mass Index checks your body fat which should be ‘in proportion’ to your weight / muscle. In proportion? why not make the fat minimal? We live in a tropical country so we dont need all that fat to make us warm, and 2, yeah there is travel to cooler climates and airconditioning, but what are jackets for?

So I started losing weight after Christmas, and now Im still 2 pounds away from my ideal weight. I have heard a lot of words thrown at me, The good, the bad and the ugly (as in, literally ‘ugly’). Its hard at first, but well, its my body, and besides, as long as my sweetie likes the way I look, anybody else’s op doesn’t matter. =)

Now some people tell me that its best to keep my mouth shut when youre dieting. Nobody has to know you’re doing it. I say differently. I am not obsessed with it but I may be able to share my experiences with women going through the same thing, or even the men who never gave it a thought. And to my friends who are pregnant and have children already, I know I am in no liberty to give you advise because, well, I have never had a child, and never been pregnant, but eating for two should not give you an excuse to pork out. Probably easier said than done huh. Maybe I need to get pregnant first before i say anything.. hahahaha!! But there are some health mags and exercise videos for pregnant women and mothers who dont have time for themselves. You just need to check with your doctor about a weight maintenance program that is right for you. Just as the old saying goes, ‘If there’s a will, there’s a way’.

AND I’M TELLING YOU, NOTHING TASTES BETTER THAN SKINNY. The feeling of contentment in going to a store and trying on pants and blouse without the excess bulge is priceless! :)- not to mention being adored by my sweetie xoxooooxox!!!

2007 - another year just breezed by. And with it, comes a new year full of lessons to be learned. 30 years passed, I have realized a lot of things that I noticed about myself and my life around me.

           1. My body became a fat magnet.

I used to eat anything and everything without getting fat. My body type used to be pretty skinny at every part. I used to envy little girls with a little meat in their bodies. For me, it is a sign of wealth. I dreamed of having a round, Coca Cola body than my scrawny one.  However, I realized that as years are added to my age, so are layers and layers of fat without any effort - and without any effort it was. Generally, my arms, shoulders, neck and face are ok (Thank God for my genetically high cheek bones which I have inherited from my mom). oh but food never tasted sooooo good when you’re 30! My boyfriend introduced me to a healthy food point system. I am supposed to eat only 22 food points if I work out. I thought it was as simple as a breeze. But when I started counting, I found out that I eat too much! Up to 34 food points without exercise! Now my belly nearly looks like a tire around my waist!. And I’ve also realized that it would take me one month to shed them off as against a week of diet and calisthenics when I was 16! With this, I have made a resolve not just to look great but feel great. To bring back my skinny old self and to a healthier new me this 2008.  This is not just about being vain or depriving myself of being happy by avoiding the foods I enjoy. To eat foods in moderation. I know food lovers may not agree, but if youre thinner, you feel lighter and you’re less lethargic

        2. Nobody could put you down but yourself.

Hard to accept but true. If some people are so negative about me or good things happening to me in general, I avoid them like the flu - regardless of how I am related to that person.

        3. You only forgive those who seek it.

If a person is too prideful to ask for forgiveness, then its not worth it. Also, people who lash out on you without a good heart to heart talk is only a waste of your time and can not be considered a friend. Life is too precious to be wasted on toxic peeps.

        4. Teach a lesson by example.

I don’t believe in killing someone with kindness. Some people just need to be taught by inflicting them with their own poison. That’s the only way they’ll realize what they have done if they felt their own sting.

        5. Never be too afraid to try

If faced with an unforeseen event, I only use two words that are most effective 1) "JUST PRAY"  2) BE POSITIVE 3) HOPE FOR THE BEST.. (ok, those are four words)…

Another year - another life - another challenge - another hope. To all the 300+ whatever days that will be added to our box of memories, I keep in mind that faith is the only grace that could fill whatever void may come.

H A P P Y 2 0 0 8 TO ALL! 

And soon, that month of mush will be rolling in :p    

(WARNING…If you react to this blog, you are the guilty stupid voter because if you aren’t, you shouldn’t be affected.)

Yes you are stupid… So stupid.. Now look at what you have gotten us into! Do you want this kind of chaos over an over and over again? Which 5 star establishment are they gonna rock next? Shang-ri La Hotel?

1) Who in their crazy mind would vote for a (convicted) felon (he is guilty by my standards) who wouldnt be able to do ‘anything’ because he’s on trial? I mean, what the f**k??? what were you guys thinking??? You voted for him because he’s guapo? ??OMG! DUHHHH!!! Not even!

2) What is their purpose? what is their motive? They want to oust Arroyo? For who? For what? For themselves? Because of graft and corruption? So…. you’re telling me that TRILLANES is not corrupt??? YEAH RIGHT…

And if Trillanes is going to make "freshmen MARINES" as frontliners at war with little benefits as a justification for his acts, etc… All I can say to Trillanes is… THAT IS THEIR JOB YOU PR*CK! If you want to make a point, don’t involve innocent bystanders or shoppers and put their lives on the line you scheming b*s**rd!

3) As I heard from a neutral website, ‘ the defendants’ (Trillanes and his ignoramus men) marched to the Peninsula hotel, pushed away guards at the entrance, and set up a command center in a second-floor function room. Armed guards were set up on stairways from the lobby. If they are FOR THE PEOPLE as they say, then why force yourself into a lobby of a hotel and inconvenience everyone with your stupid point? I have also lost my respect for Teofisto Guingona (former Vice President). And some media personnel’s overly dramatic statements of how they were poorly treated by the military are soooo not getting my sympathy. You are a pathetic excuse for bloodsuckers who want more than attention…

Don’t get me wrong. I am not an Arroyo Administration fan. But we have to admit that she has been bombarded left and right. As I have read from a bumper sticker somewhere ‘Ang Punong laging pinupukol, kailanmay hindi mamumunga’, (A Tree that is always being hurled at will never be fruitful). And with an arrogant d**k for a son, who wouldn’t be disturbed? Her immediate dismissal of the decision on former President Estrada’s conviction is a mockery of her own judicial system. But I do understand her reasons… Her mistake was making that decision too soon.

I have always believed that no matter who or what your government is, it is up to YOU to make your lives productive and a channel of goodness and prosperity. The government can not change your lives for the better. They are only there to put things in order. If not for ‘any’ government, the world will be under total anarchy.

No further comments…

After a loong hiatus from Friendster, I just wanted to check things around… whats new with everyone.

Apparently, my friends have grown (the number, and the people), also some of Friendster features have improved.

But I also noticed other people transferring or having other personal webbies like Facebook or Multiply. What do they have that Friendster doesn’t? and why oh why, am I such a hardcore Myspace aficionado?

Well, its not my business to know other people’s reasons for such. If you ask me, I am happy with my yahoo 360 for my private PRIVATE blogs, Friendster to keep in touch with my friends here and across the globe, and Myspace (my favorite website hangout) for my creative ability (you wont believe the features MYSPACE has!)-limitless cultural possibilities (my international friends’ blogs can really be witty, hilarious, romantic and downright political) and of course, my random blogging. Thanks to Kolokay who got me hooked into reading, and Anna Banana, to this form of expression. But of course, I can never top her highness’ creativity. To Banana, ‘I’m not worthy! I’m not worthy!’…

Actually, i never thought writing can be my passion. I used to believe its my older sister who has this gift. I’m the kind of writer who needs to be conditioned, not by alcohol, but by hormones - and no, not the shots, I’m talking about when I’m having pms, or on a full moon(I don’t know why). I’m usually at my expressive peak during these times. Its not automatic in me. I’ve had days when I wanted to write but - duh.. can’t seem to start a paragraph. I had to exert real effort into that subject-verb agreement, not to mention spelling, (at times) and my poems can be quite.. well.. unorthodox. but after reading a lot of people’s public diaries, i became somewhat confident in sharing what I feel, what I know, and what I want to learn in life. I’m such a private person (yes, I am!) when it comes to my personal life. I have thoughts that may seem scandalous to others, or maybe acts that may seem controversial. That is why I like to keep things as private as I can. I am not shy, I am just privy about stuff that I feel needs to be kept to myself..well, so far so good.

Have you ever felt so good and wanted to share your story to people without hearing any negative reactions that you wanted to really burst??? Or fear that telling everybody happy stories may jinx the situation??? I feel like a balloon about to pop! But after 20 or so years, I’ve learned to pop only to people I can trust, people who give encouragement and support, people who will not put down what I think. There is still a lot to tell though, but I’ll leave it to people closest to me who already knows bits and pieces about this.

Long story short, why did i write this blog?

oh nothing.. i just miss you guys, that’s all

kisses and prayers to y’all.

Grabe tagal ko na walang post.. Iba na talaga ang nagpapanggap na may life

haaaayyyyy